Letting go of Resistance

Lazy Sunday finds me here with my thoughts, wandering through the back roads of my mind and awareness without a tangible road map.  These are the times when we can let ourselves just explore and wander; taking in all the sights and the pathways that we are drawn to following.  There is the saying, All who wander are not lost.  In this case I know this landscape well.  Perhaps a little TOO well.  It is time to get intimate with it and let myself be aware of all the subtle twists and turns that I pass on a daily basis without a second glance, you know, because I know it so well.  ;)

The street I find myself on is called Resistance.  It runs parallel to Acceptance St. and in between a small side street called transition way.  I can see where I go back and forth down transition way and I recognize that I spend alot of time on Acceptance St.  What is coming to my awareness as I look around, is that I still own some property on Resistance St.  Sure, it is up for sale, ready to be redeveloped into a new bigger and better place but I know that I have some attachments to it to shed before the transfer happens. 

To me this is a great visual as I embark on a new journey to freedom and peace.  I have recently become aware of where I apply resistance liberally in my life.  I am a person of extremes.  There is little middle of the road for me.  I am either way over here, or wayyyyyyyyyyy over there, just s speck on the map from where I just was.  Emotionally, mentally, physically extreme.  Yup that's me!  My life is never ever dull or boring for certain!  However, with age comes wisdom, and the extremes are getting tiring, so I am beginning a new phase of cleaning house.

What we resist persists.  Boy has that become a strong pitcher to the head recently.  I can now see when I am in resistance clearly and recognize it.  When my thinking brain decides that which is occurring (or not occurring!) is not to my liking, and the trees and boulders plop into my path, my nature is to blast them, cling them and attempt to shove them out of my way.  But Kim!  Maybe they are there for a reason!  Yea yea, I know that one and I give that advice on a daily basis.  HERE is part of the work I came to do in this lifetime.  HERE is the growth I planned before I got here.  HERE is where it scares the crap out of me!  I can admit that now.  Having the tendency to not budge from my goals and the picture of how I think the outcome should look I have limited myself to the point of being stagnant in some areas of my life.  Well if something doesn't work for you, try something new right?  This is the X on the map I am standing on right now. 

I fully plan on taking out my little GPS and setting a new course.  It is high time, to release resistance in all forms, trusting that the only way out is through. 

For today though, my only goal is to observe where I resist the flow of life, to get out my GPS, dust it off, charge it up and turn it on.  Dialing in my new address:  Acceptance St. and I have chosen which route I will take.....and it is called The Path of Least Resistance.

Maybe this will help someone else discover where resisting has become an adversary instead of a traveling friend.  You are welcome to hop in the passenger seat, buckle up and come along for the ride.  There is adventure and exploration on the horizon.  I welcome the company, and someone to help read the map.